From inside out

From outside in

Created by a drop

From hot to cold

Appears on clear.

Taken out of suspension

In air.

So bold

Yet humble

To stay clean

To allow anything

To be drawn on

To be wiped away

Into invisible again

Easy…comfortable….untethered

Tired

But not lost

Hurt

But not defeated

Let me lay here

For just a moment

Cover me up with a blanket

Of ice and snow

Let me breathe and remember

The sound of rain

In my ears

The touch of raindrops

On my face

The warmth of laughter

In my chest

I will rise again

To love again

But until the snow melts

Let me lay here — quiet

Until the snow melts

Stay by my side — quiet

I seek

For in my seeking is my offering

And in my seeking is my claim

I seek

For in my seeking is my fire

And in my seeking is my rain

I seek

For in my seeking is my dance

And in my seeking is my restrain

I seek

For in my seeking is my love

And in my seeking is Your reign

When the time comes

You will know

You will step out

Onward again

But until then

Rest

Let me hold you

While you hold my heart

When the time comes

Promise me

There won’t be good-byes

You won’t look back

My heart grows restless

Wondering when I will hold You

My eyes tire from not blinking

Lest I miss seeing You

My ears hurt from straining

To hear Your voice

I look up and

I tell myself

Hush dear soul

This is a game of eternities

A dance of forever

If not the breath in

The breath out

If not today

Tomorrow

If not this lifetime

The next

For right now—

I am enough

I breathe in

I go away

I breathe out

I have arrived

There never was a door

There never were walls

Silence drowned the thunder

I step over the line I had drawn

I breathe in

I am fire

I breathe out

I am embers

I seek nothing more

Than to know You

I want nothing more

Than to come home

You speak to me in a hundred ways

Your silent pause-

Wistful eloquence.

I am listening

I swallowed a cup-full

Of hot blazing stars

Almost choked on one

An extra bright giant

They went down

Burning a fire trail

Before they settled

In my inferno

I am one with them

Fire and dust in pride

I am a little singed

But I am warm inside

How do I reconcile

The darkness under the lamp

How do I offer

The holy water murky with mud

Do I notice

My cup is broken, many times over

Can I tell

My hands are not always steady

Do I weigh my soul

In a balance, against my actions

Do the sins

Weigh heavy, and sink the scale

Today I sit

And be silent in my presence

Lower my head

And my ego and my mind

Count every infraction

Like the beads on the rosary

Mend my cup

With flakes of gold

Let the mud settle

I can see my reflection

Accountable, but forgiven

Made whole

Smeared in ashes

But embers inside

Sharp and jagged veil

Hides symmetry always

Thunder and rain clouds

Over a calm ocean

My drunken whirling

Shrouds my stillness

My words encase

My silent surrender

My appearance a beggar

And my essence – You