It only takes one

A kind word

To make me want to try

A look of disdain

To bring out the worst

A hopeful glance

To make me want to give

A loud demand

To make me afraid

A gentle smile

To make me feel safe

A laugh

To make me warm

A question

To bring doubts rushing in

A mirror

To question what is

A look of mischief

To make me want to tease

A single ray of sunshine

To light up everything

A drop of rain

To make me want to look up

A heartbreak

To make me want to kneel

A moment of silence

To make me complete

And yet

Silence eludes me

Irresolute

I can see

I can hear

I see the candles lit

The flowers laid

The bowed heads

Dresses white as marble

Dresses black as night

The look of hope in some eyes

In others, despair

But all asking

Wanting

Needing something

Or someone

I hear the prayers

The complaints

The confessions

The sermons

I can see

I can hear

Carved out of stone

I stand irresolute

I made you in My image

You made me in yours

I created perfection

Eternity

No limits

Gave you My kingdon

You made Me an idol

And then fell on your knees

Seeking redemption

The Peddler

I feel full

You may even say overflowing

I want to pour out

Spill over

Make room

So I do not forget

Emptiness

I bring rattles and planes

Clowns and dolls

Soldiers and trains

Stories

Acts

Face paint

I have laid it all out

In neat order

I sing and chant

Passers-by hurrying

Worrying

Rushed and with purpose

No time to stop

To sit and be amused

Families to tend

Gardens to water

No time for the peddler

I gather up my things

And my thoughts

In silence

Realize

Who am I to give to another

The complete will always have

The emptiness within

Let me try the next village

The next market

Maybe someone there needs

A rattle

Or a clown

Give me strength

To each that is strong

I ask with no shame

Give me just a little

Of the magic that makes you so

To the earth that bears everything

To listen but not judge

To the mountain that faces the blistery winds

To deal with defeat

But more importantly, victory

To the ocean that rages and yet is still

To sit unafraid in the midst of violence

To the lion that rules those bigger and stronger

A heart that does not bleed for those gone

To the clock that knows eternity

The meaning of the pause

To the fires of hell

The ability to be an inferno

And welcome everything offered

To the wings of the hummingbird

The tireless quest for nectar

To You

The ability to not cry at the sight of the

perfect raindrop

on the back of my hand

Stay

Stay

Just a little while longer

Don’t go yet

It has taken ages

For me to know

Me

For me to look up

You have set the sky on fire

Burn a little longer

Before night falls

Again

Before the shadows rise

Give me a chance

To catch just one spark

It will be enough

To light me up

So I can finally

Be aflame

And turn to ashes

Before night falls

Again

I carry the weight

You are sweet and gentle

A believer

A saint and a hermit

A giver

Kind to a fault

So when you put your hopes in me

Hopes of love

Of forgiveness

And you wish for me to bring to you

The moon

That reflects the sun

And lights up your path

On long dark nights

When you long for me

To bring you

The comfort of a shoulder

I become that eye lash

That fell lovingly on your cheek

That you carefully held

And closed your eyes

And blew upon gently

With steadfast intent

And made a wish

With just a hint of a hopeful smile

I feel the weight that

That eyelash must carry

Wanting to search

And bring you

What you long for

But you quietly look at me

And tell me

That it is for you to wish

For me to be just a messenger

And for Another to grant

You make me feel light

Again

So let me be the one

You continue to wish upon

I will feel I am

Still looking

Through your eyes

What is it that I seek

If I run really fast

Why do I need to tell

If I run very far

Why is there an urge to yell

If I write a love song,

why does it need to be heard

If silence is golden

Talking seems absurd

Why is there a constant need

For approval from another

The incessant wasted worry

For words to go further

If only I can sit with myself

And be gentle and kind

There really is nothing else

For me to need or find

Nothing to be had

Nothing to be done

Nowhere to go

Nothing to become

In your light

Life breaks all rules when

I grasp it in my hand

It slips away with ease

Like a million grains of sand

I run so hard to catch up

But it’s always two ahead

I wander lost in the streets

Looking for it’s thread

And then I catch a glimpse

Of it’s brilliance in your eyes

It seems to dance with joy

In the mischief of your smile

What seemed to be impossible

To slow down or understand

Seems happily suspended

In the palm of your hand

So let me pause for a moment

And gaze upon your face

And in your light find life

In all it’s glory and grace

Let me walk in step with you

Even if for just a while

And in your light find love

Let it be my last mile

I need to get home

Dawn breaks

The earth stretches

The sky unfolds slowly

The dew drops sigh

The trees stir

And the sun starts

Its slow journey across the sky

I wake up from my dream

Of being home with You

I jump up ready

I need to get home

No time to waste

I have to finish what I start

Everything has to be done

Promises have to be kept

Lessons have to be learnt

Wrongs need to be made right

I have to live a whole life now

I will be gone tomorrow

No time

To linger around

To ponder

I walk fast

I run

I speak fast

Some heard, some lost

I need to say everything

No time to lose

Or pause

I am rushing to get home

As the shadows start to get long

And the birds fly home

My hope starts to dim

Of getting home today

It is dark

I have to stop

Sit and stay

No point in fighting any more

Tired feet

My eyes close

I dream

Of home

Of You

Of light and joy

I wake up with the lark

Jump up and ready

Today will be the day

I will get home

I have to get home

I have to walk fast

No time to waste

I need to do everything

Now

Please

Much as I love the clouds and thunder

Can You make the sun shine again

I respect the wisdom of defeat

But allow me victory again

I know that if I sit very still

My mountain is just a hill

I realize the lessons of the climb

You know I have had my fill

I know each person sent my way

Has been sent so I can learn

But my bones are cold and weary

Please let the fire burn

Just this once let there be

No soothsayer no liar

Just a slow dance in the silence

No purpose no desire

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