The flow is seeking

Gathering of all

Taking it all in

Yet clear and pristine

I seek and I quench

I give way and I cut through

I reflect and I absorb

I am me and I am you

I am home in the mountain

Just as much as in the ocean

I am home in the rain clouds

In stillness and in motion

In my currents is my quest

In my rushing I do seek

In my seeking is the silence

And the calm of oceans deep

I am all that is me

I am all of my instincts

My Rights my wrongs

My Dark my light

My passions my fears

My sorrows my joys

My pride my shame

My lows my highs

I am a band

A band of rebels

I don’t need to crawl

Or seek redemption

Or climb up the top

And shout I am

I am not high

And nor am I low

I am my guardian

I just am, I know

I have no need

No desire

Self-reliant

Rivers merge in me

Storms rise from me

You can not give me

You can not take from me

For I am complete

And yet

I seek the sun

To be my witness

To affirm my being

The mirror to my fire

And when the sun sets

I stand silent

Still complete

I know I am

I know that is

From inside out

From outside in

Created by a drop

From hot to cold

Appears on clear.

Taken out of suspension

In air.

So bold

Yet humble

To stay clean

To allow anything

To be drawn on

To be wiped away

Into invisible again

Easy…comfortable….untethered

Tired

But not lost

Hurt

But not defeated

Let me lay here

For just a moment

Cover me up with a blanket

Of ice and snow

Let me breathe and remember

The sound of rain

In my ears

The touch of raindrops

On my face

The warmth of laughter

In my chest

I will rise again

To love again

But until the snow melts

Let me lay here — quiet

Until the snow melts

Stay by my side — quiet

I seek

For in my seeking is my offering

And in my seeking is my claim

I seek

For in my seeking is my fire

And in my seeking is my rain

I seek

For in my seeking is my dance

And in my seeking is my restrain

I seek

For in my seeking is my love

And in my seeking is Your reign

When the time comes

You will know

You will step out

Onward again

But until then

Rest

Let me hold you

While you hold my heart

When the time comes

Promise me

There won’t be good-byes

You won’t look back

My heart grows restless

Wondering when I will hold You

My eyes tire from not blinking

Lest I miss seeing You

My ears hurt from straining

To hear Your voice

I look up and

I tell myself

Hush dear soul

This is a game of eternities

A dance of forever

If not the breath in

The breath out

If not today

Tomorrow

If not this lifetime

The next

For right now—

I am enough

I breathe in

I go away

I breathe out

I have arrived

There never was a door

There never were walls

Silence drowned the thunder

I step over the line I had drawn

I breathe in

I am fire

I breathe out

I am embers

I seek nothing more

Than to know You

I want nothing more

Than to come home

You speak to me in a hundred ways

Your silent pause-

Wistful eloquence.

I am listening